As My Heart Beats in New York

As my heart beats,

as I am in NY,

as I am in my nice apartment,

as I know how everything will end.

I know I worked so hard

just for leaving it finally.

I know I broke my heart

while living here.

I know I hurt my own feelings

by being so stubborn.

Life taught me so much.

But it never taught me

how life can be—

brutal,

soft,

romantic,

hurtful,

heartbreaking,

and even cruel